The one thing I have wanted since my first day in BBYO was to be a sweetheart. It was finally my year and I did everything possible during Nom period to prove to the boys of Louis D. Brandeis that I was the girl for them. The night of Walkdown came and the only thing I could focus on was finding out if I had won. The nerves gradually became more intense as the night progressed and eventually it was time to reveal the winner. Each LDB nom got a pink box and in each box were beads, whichever box had red and black beads would be the new sweetheart. Shakily, I opened the box to reveal green and gold beads...the tears began to stream down my face as the boys jumped on stage to sing to their new sweetheart. The sablosky girls quickly grabbed me to console me, but it didn't seem like anything could get any better. The only thing I had ever wanted had just been taken right out from under me. The votes were so close and I thought for once that this could have been mine. The night seemed to continue even slower than before and every time I thought I might be done crying, more tears streamed down my face. With every hug, "I love you," "you're amazing," ect. comment I got, nothing really seemed to be better. I had Nathan by my side, all of my girls next to me, and yet I was still crying. I cried the rest of the night, all day Sunday and Monday, and I really thought that by today I might be a little bit better. I am hiding it better than I thought because I don't want to talk about it all the time, but that doesn't mean I am over it. I know that everything happens for a reason, but right now it just doesn't seem like that. Past Sablosky girls texted me throughout the next few days, and luckily I have been blessed with the most amazing friends and family I could have ever asked for. As the last two chapters were announced, I stood by Jackie and Sureck's side hopping they would be given the title of Sweetheart, that all 3 of us had dreamed of. Unfortunately, I cannot join them in their journey of being sweethearts, but together they will show those boys how amazing they are. Kaplan couldn't ask for a better sweetheart and neither could Lacey. Those boys have no idea just how lucky they are. My two best friends will be the most amazing sweethearts in the world and I cannot wait to see what they do this next year. Hopefully things will start to get better but the best thing I can do is wait it out. I can now return to my home and heart, Sablosky, and do what is best for my girls. I will forever and always be a nom for Louis D. Brandeis AZA and will never forget the most amazing 6 weeks I spent with those boys. I made incredible friendships that even without the title I will still cherish. The new sweetheart for Brandeis will be amazing.
I love you Brandeis Boys oh yes I do.
JACKIE SWEETHEART AND DANI SWEETHEART: you girls are amazing. yall are the definition of what it means to be a best friend to someone and you're boys couldn't be luckier to have you both. Live up to S4S like I was standing beside you. I love you both forever and always.
You are an amazing young woman who inspires those around her. I have always believed that things happen for a reason and it is hard because we don't know the reason. You have handled this with such grace. I was watching Brother and Sister the other night and heard this and loved it...Sarah's daughter had her heart broken cause she was stood up and her Mom's fella says to her that it just sucks when your heart is broken and it always will hurt but one day you realize that is a small part of your heart that is broken and there is still a lot of heart left. Now I will be the old lady and tell you that with time it hurts less and less and one day you just don't think about it every day and you once again smile in your heart. I can't tell you how very proud I am of you and how very much I love you. You are a true Koopman woman and I am so honored to be a part of your family, to be your Aunt and your friend.
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